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sleepover 2
Posted on September 3

dear diary:
i'm currently at a sleepover at my friend izzy's house w/ bryan and kathryn - its fun, we finished Spree, i love it i cant believe its a real movie
um, i got a MCR cd and A fidget spinner and some clothes i think maybe im nor sure. hoping i dont throw up this time ik i did last time.
im gonna let them type:

I HAVE A FAT FAT FAT .... - Kathryn

hi i'm super cool and nice and the best friend in the world - Izzy :)

Hey its me bryan brooke has mentioned me a bit anyways they let me do some stuff on here and i just wanted to say that they are a big nerd buh bye - Bryan

ok bye blog love u

August ─────────────────────────────────────────────────o

Posted on August 30

Dear Diary:
Yesterday I went nonverbal for the first time in the middle of fifth period. It was kind of a weird experience - I panic texted Ivy when that happened, but neither of us knew what to do. It lasted until the end of the day.. when I got to 6th period, Band, I had a sticky note prepared saying "I'm not doing a bit, I just don't want to speak today." I wrote on sticky notes for the rest of the day, including asking my friends if they thought I could go the entire period without talking. 3 for yes, 2 for no. I won, because I was still nonverbal by the end of it, but I think it went away by the end of class, too? I don't know much about it. Sorry. If anyone could tell me more about this I'd like that, thank you.. Anyways, it was.. an experience? I think it's gonna happen again. Soon. I don't know.

p.s. don't mind this entry being written properly

p.p.s. 7,000 words have been written here, apparently, and apparently it'll take 25 minutes to read. i beg to differ >:)

dork with a diary..
Posted on August 29

dear diary:
i've been thinking about dork diaries a lot. the only time i ever read it was in elementary school, but for some reason, its memory is ingrained in my soul, juxtaposted with all the wimpy kid i read. i remember the beautiful art, glittery gel pen*, cutesy ... nature..? i don't know, it's hard to think right now... (*i don't remember if it included sparkly gel pen, but i've been writing with them exclusively the past week and they remind me of the book.) anyways, ive also been thinking i kind of want to Write. like WRITE. like write something really meaningful and maybe its a book and i don't really know, i wanna write something though. with my hands. not typing.
thank you????

Posted on August 29

Nothing too important.

Posted on August 28

something feels important about today. not knowing what it is, is making my stomach turn. i feel like i'm going to throw up... what was so important about today?

my weekend n stuff
Posted on August 26

dear diary:
hi! i've had a long weekeend so i've had the chance to code a bit. i've been good recently, playing terraria with Ivy a lot, i've been doing whatever i want and unfortunately that includes being depressed a bit. but that's ok! we all get that way some times. i also coded what will be the website's autumn retheme, i'm proud of it and excited to implement it sometime in september, whenever i feel like it should be there. im also excited to see FNAF when it comes out, i hope it's better than mario... i saw Mario when it came out, but god, i don't actually like it that much, and i'm a HUGE mario fan. feels kinda cheap, i haven't rewatched it at all, and i much prefer Barbie cause it was really good.. anyways, bye!

school started again / rant
Posted on August 22

dear diary:
sorry for the low quality post last entry. i feel like i remember making a number of those last year, i apologize. i want my blog to be interesting to read, but i also want it to sort of chronicle everything that happens, but i don't always have the energy or time to write a post. thank you.
anyways, school started again. it's kinda boring right now (i'm in higley's class.. ugh..) but it's fine. it's quiet. i guess its fine.. im just waiting for my more interesting 5th period, algebra 2, and my fun period, band. probably get to move things today. hooray.
(rant starts here) even though my band synth is $2000 more than my home synth (Arturia Keylab MkII vs. Korg EK-50) i like my home synth more. why? WEIGHTED KEYS SUCK!!!! they're too fucking heavy on the arturia and i hate playing complex things with them. i dont even like the synth - its just a midi controller. FINE when its just you making music but horrible when you're at band and you're missing a piece of the puzzle and nothing can work and it wont connect to anything and... you get what i mean?? "midi controllers" suck ass. useless pieces of plastic and broken dreams. "oh wow i got a $1,000 synth i wonder if i can use it" nuh UH buddy go buy fucking mainstage or FL or some dumbass shit to make it work, BUDDY. ALSO i just saw now the NERVE of these guys to sell WOODEN LEGS for LITERALLY $230... ugh.
i'm done ranting

diary entry 8 19
Posted on August 19

dear diary:
school is starting soon again. i dont wanna go. also i dumped Alex i don't like him anymore
annyways so there's someone else i have a crush on and it's not gonna go well lol i know theyre gonna reject me or smth
uh... i had a pool party yesterday it was cool everyone came to it i had fun


my new name
Posted on August 14

dear diary:
i've been thinking a lot about changing my name. i've been going by Kai irl now for a long time, 2 years?, and Kaia online. i like the name Kaia but i don't know if it's for me anymore. so i've been thinking about a new name- it makes me feel warm inside, i really really like it, and ive been using it online exclusively for a bit now, although i don't really know if there's a gender-neutral version i can go by.. :( anyways, i like it, is the point.
call me Brooke!

Posted on August 14

it's coming soon. i promise. the demo, at least. thanks for putting up with me

Posted on August 11

dear diary
so ive been working on upgrading my laptop. its not going very well. this new one is good and all but the fans suck and discord crashes randomly and SMBX2 won't fucking work and ALSO the audio jack is broken so i had to buy a usb one. it's not here yet, so i can't make any music today. it sucks. hopefully itll get better but i ran out of money to keep upgrading this thing so i have to wait for cosmic to pay me again. cool. uh.. so.. that's basically it. STPR demo should come out really soon. by october.

Posted on August 8

dear diary
i made a patreon. https://www.patreon.com/coffeebug if you sub, you get a comission, basically.

other than that, i've been okay. i got a huge raise in my commission prices for a show so. thats cool. new computer soon maybe

July ───────────────────────────────────────────────────o

Posted on July 26

dear diary

hi, blog

here's life recently
i've been getting up every day pretty early because i have band camp now. it's fine, i like seeing my friends and all, but i think it;s really boring, especially cause my synth hasn't worked and i haven't been playing anything these past three days (itll work tmrw i think.) so its boring. anyways ive been working on super terrible project R, and last night i hid some clues about the project in some pretty.. predictable? places? can you find them? probably. anyways, so i'll probably do a big official name reveal sometime, and a teaser video saying the demo will come out late 2023 soon. the name's already been said in a couple places, so if you look harder, maybe you'll find them? idk.
so life's been... ok? i don't know. i haven't felt good lately, at least not super good. i don't know if i'm ever gonna get the mental health help i need, and if i never do, then i'll tell you all how i'm dying, ok? haha
so um, if you want a commission, i'm open for those, i got a cashapp and a paypal now. they're.. cool.. right? i'm really tired, okay?!
it's been weird kind of having money recently? i got my bandcamp money and i kinda spent it all immeidately so im waiting to get paid again so i can spend it all immediately too.
also, i kinda wanted to maybe do a blog that is a movie review? give my honest thoughts on movies i've seen recently? sounds fun! plus ive wanted to do more "solid" "content" for a while now, like editing a big youtube video. idk. uhhh lets seee... so i saw Barbie and i could review it, cause i really liked it. i also wanna review Spirited Away cause it was so good... ugghh a BDG song just came on. ive been listening to louie zong and BDG a lot lately. and vylet pony of course, always her. i also listen to the mysterious murasame castle theme from smash a lot. its really good but it also reminds mee too much of gang-plank galleon, i think. or one of the tetris themes. remember what i said earlier? the next two songs coming up in my playlist are "thumbnail" and "soundscape diary" so i guess i was honest haha.. thanks for letting me get all this out, by the way., i don't really want to talk to anyone about all this. everyone i know won't really care or if they do they won't really have any commentary... kinda sad? idk. i dont really wanna have a conversation with someone that's mostly one-sided. over 1100 characters in this paragraph so far, so i guess i'm really just writing an essay. i guess i could talk more about band camp - it's fun, i get to see my friends. danny and koby are predictably dorky, bryan and kathryn and jonathan are funny, pit and battery are nice. i'm saying their names here in case i forget in a lot of years because i don't want to forget. i don't want to forget. i don't want to forget!! that's the point of this blog! i archive it pretty frequently to make sure nothing gets lost. i want it to stay here forever on the internet. so i can always see it. write down my thoughts and feelings and *remember* what i was thinking. because that's important, right? knowing what you thought all those months, years ago? knowing what your life was like? like is so short and fickle and ever-changing and fast and i hate it but i love it and i can't bear it and i can't wait to see more. 2000 characters. i can't believe life. it's just a mess of hopes and dreams and music and thoughts and myself and this girl i want to be deep inside trying to come out and i hate it and i love it and i'm getting rambly because the girl inside is knocking at her window and knocking at the door and asking may i please come out? yes girl, yes dear, yes sweetheart you can come out and you can spill all of your thoughts and feelings into a diary that nobody will care about and everybody will see.............

goodnight, diary

money !!!
Posted on July 20

dear diary

life has been good lately! i finally got a cash card so now i can finally start getting paid for my work! i use paypal to take em. maybe ill give out my cashapp. idk. i finally got the $26 waiting in limbo from bandcamp, so if you bought an album (i know some of you did), i spent your money on Fairune Collection. thank you! that's all, except the next two weeks are band camp so i'll be busy every day :( anyways bye

Testing spoiler tag

Posted on July 10

dear diary

little update: life is fine right now, feeling happy cause i just finished a big commission for cosmicpostman (5:45 in length) and i am gonna buy rpg maker mz, the 2020 version, and im also gonna get the 2003 version for me and germpills. but i havent told them yet. i wanna get the latest version cause its on sale rn and i do wanna make a game with it.. idk. anyways! the song i made for cosmic is rly fuckin good, i dont think i can post it rn, but im proud of it (and getting paid!!! love that) ummm i also hid motifs of my own in there, i dont think anyone but me is gonna recognize them all. also cosmic hasnt told me anything about find a motif so,. i guess . its fine. taylor has recognized them tho :3
anyways, thats basically it, just wanted to write down my thoughts. bye diary

sleepover tomorrow
Posted on July 7

dear diary

tomorrow im going to a sleepover. this is the first sleepover ive gone to this state since my 3 years of being here, and my second im being invited to ever. bryan and izzy keep describing it as a "girls night" and im like,, holy shit? really? i want to go to a "girls night" i wanna be a girl more. i wanna feel like one. yknow? gender is ard for me; its hard for me to even say my own name, even if its my preferred one. anyways! they're reading this . so tomorrow im gonna try and be my best self, try to be a girl, even if i dont feel like one all the time. it'll be fun.. i hope. im also ringing my modded wii u so i finally get to play nsmbwii with friends - ive wanted to do that for a while again.
apart from the sleepover, im also getting paid soon, because ive started working on another show! ^_^ or, um, i think it's a show? either that or dnd? idfk. theres like 18 songs tho, ill publish all of them on my youtube once im allowed to. bye diary

this week
Posted on July 1

hey, diary

my weeks been really so so. i got really depressed last night. and also been a little busy because ive been getting into the original animal crossing, and of course ive been working on midifreak. it comes out today and im just now realizing i dont have seperate song uploads for all the music so i guess i should do that.... but im really tired, so whatever, i guess. i wont even release them at the same time. idk. im really tired.
bye... for now

June ───────────────────────────────────────────────────o

summer is really boring
Posted on June 25

dear diary:
here are the things that have happened:
i got animal crossing gc to work, band had no kids at it, i ruined my sleep schedule, i played vr minecraft, i coded bugyga 2, i started finished up my secret project, i played a bad shrek racing game, i ate really good pizza, and i like pac man. that's basically it.
sorry for not updating much - there hasn't really been anything big that i really want to talk about. just small things. if i decide something's cool enough, i'll blog about it, but if not, then whatever. otherwise, stay tuned for that secret project.
bye! see you soon

edit 6/27: that secret project is MIDIfreak, my next album!!! releasing july first! it's gonna be cool, pinky promise :)

I found this weird picture on my camera roll
Posted on June 21

dear diary:

wwoo and stuff
Posted on June 12

dear diary:
hi! ive been working on the wonderful world of objects a lot lately i think its cool. progress is being made, and taylor made a new website linked here. ive been doing some music for it, it's cool. i dont know if i can post anything because its very top secret and i can't link any of it. anyways

band starts tomorrow and idk if i'm ready. ALSO also, IF YOU WANT A COMMISSION. I AM ALWAYS FREE RIGHT NOW. ok bye

pool party
Posted on June 6

dear diary:
hello! today i am holding a pool party! :) i invited like 15 people to it and i hope a lot of people show up. this is my first actual party ive ever been too - a little disappoing i had to hold one for that to happen - but whatever. i dont care rn. it will start in 2 hours and 20 mins. it will be cool! i get to see my boyfriend too so thats awesome. anyways im really hungry and im also wirint ghit son call so im gonna go do that. bye

exams ending
Posted on June 2

dear diary:
hello. today i am finishing up my last exams - im a little sad to leave my 1/2 period teachers behind, i like them. did you know this is post #53? i did. i hope it is at least. anyways, happy pride month, i put bug and berry in the header and they're just walkin around up there with the flag stuff on. (something about seeing bug in the trans skirt feels.. right.)

anyways, after this is summer break. back to playing video games and making music. now would be a good time for commissions!
if i had any LOL
i'm not complaining, i don't need the money super badly anyways. i just hope i don't get to a point where i have to put out "emergency commissions". i worry about my financial state sometimes. ...anyways, bye for now

May ───────────────────────────────────────────────────o

entry #52
Posted on May 31

dear diary:
i want to talk to you about endless things but i dont know where to start. i really like technology, im amazed by how it works, im amazed by how it grips us all and how its intertwined. though im really interested in the emergence period of tech. like windows 95-xp. late 90s, early 2000s. i really like how it was way more fun, the UI wasnt flat, everything was marketed as hip and cool and such.. is it even possible to miss a time you didn't see? is that what we call "longing"? why do i feel this way? escapism? unrest? the cruelty of today's modern world has me feeling bleak -- like it's super hard for me to imagine how people are just okay. happy. living on a normal income, going to work, maintaining a steady job and family. how are people happy? i want to ask you everything i want to know everything you know. one day? can i see you again?

fish whisperer
Posted on May 31

i IMPLORE you to listen to can opener's notebook: fish whisperer RIGHT NOW, or when you have time. LISTEN TO THE WHOLE THING. READ THE DESCRIPTION OF THE ALBUM and then the description of EVERY SONG. fish whisperer tells a story about a pony (named can opener, or canni), learning to love live and theirself. i can't explain it very well, but i beg that you listen to it. ...thank you.

my weekend
Posted on May 30

dear diary:
how've you been? how've i been? i have exams this week and i am not prepared! i will listen to this song until i die.
anyways, this weekend i played doom eternal a lot- very good game. i like how it's literally modern doom - everything from the original is still there, just 3d now. there's a lot of collectables, and i'm a bit concerned i won't finish it because each mission is like two hours long - that's a while... i also played a lot of fortnite (i'm getting sick of the map), and some skyrim. i started replaying it because i like it. the weirdest thing i did over the weekend was successfully get windows xp running in a virtual machine - it took two hours, but it works, and i don't know why i did it, because i literally don't have a use for it. i might recreate it in html, but i might also make an html page completely inside XP and test my knowledge of html and css without looking anything up. also without using images. (just ms paint.) idk, might be cool. also also, i'm continuing to make the band kid movie i mentioned - i have a logo for it now, and some music, and i'm hungry and tired and also writing it. that's all i have for now

p.s. have you noticed im not super good at titling these?

p.s.s. i hope someone reads these and thinks of me as a cute online blogger girl

it's 12 am
Posted on May 28

dear diary:
i wish people accepted me as trans more. i wish i accepted myself more. i never feel like a girl. it's starting to break me, honestly. i dont even look like one unless i try and even then

random thoughts lol
Posted on May 25

dear diary:
currently listening to How To Talk To Your Shadow?/Brohoof (vylet pony, carousel). i heard Discord for a second and nearly died lol
also, yesterday, i introduced the idea of making a movie to my friend in band and.. they want to do that, too. so i've started writing it. it's gonna be fun
also... i really wanna make a new EP this year. i've listened to almost all of carousel now and i really like it, though the first half of it is more my taste. still, nothing i really skipped entirely!

wasting away
Posted on May 24

dear diary:
i redid my links page, now it looks like windows 95.
i feel like i have been wasting my days - maybe.. i dunno! something's wrong and i can't really place it. maybe its because ive been playing a lot of fortnite. idk lol

updates on stuff.
Posted on May 19

dear diary:
some updates:
1. my weak computer is now getting to be too weak to handle this site's code. there are nearly 900 lines, so i understand that, but i don't really know how to solve the problem. i'm either going to try and load some old blog posts from a different page in an iframe, or just shove everything inside a div that's hidden from the start.
[edit: i fixed it. it hides pretty seamlessly inside an iframe, now.]

2. i still feel like crap, but i am making more music, and i gotta say, my recent songs sound pretty good. 'bathhouse on fire' is a hit, imo.

3. i might make another romhack of something. a short, non-stp hack. SMB, SMB3, and SMW (maybe) are the games i'm considering.

4. i'm having a friend over today for the first time in months. i am excited

5. thank you guys for 200,000 views on my website, even if a ton of those are probably just bots.

bored and sad still
Posted on May 17

dear diary:
this page's code is getting so big that i might have to do something about it eventually. anyways, i haven't felt the best recently, but i'm okay, i guess, whatever. nothing new. i made songs. i wanna work on stpr more.

also, band is gonna start soon, so at least i'm doing stuff, i guess. whatever

shashin life
Posted on May 9

dear site:
the tomodachi life page is now much better, now with a photo album. link to that

(updated page may 10th, too)

kanashi life
Posted on May 8

dear diary:
i feel like posting another blog entry, sorry. i'm listening to vylet pony's new album, carousel, and it sounds good! i feel.. apprehensive. maybe i'm just somber today, or maybe i'm really fearing that something bad will happen - i'm not sure, but i know i feel uncomfortable. and sad. sorry.

also, also, Ready Player Two is WAY too alike to Sword Art Online than i thought. also it mentions sonic.exe. not good

tomodachi life
Posted on May 8

dear diary:
i'm gonna start working on a tomodachi life page!
this line of text is the 6,000th update on my website.
here are some pics i want to include:

Koby and Ava.

Gerard "Garfield" Mulley and Eepy Girl.

these are currently all the married couples i have, by the way
bonus pic:

the roof of the Apartments building, Japanese-exclusive

other thoughts for the day:
i'm glad i have FL studio. i like having music in my life. i think creation keeps me sane.

Posted on May 7

how the fuck am i supposed to get antidepressants? please genuinely helpme

Posted on May 5

i made the tomodachi life apartments REAL!!!!!
if you wanna see it or be there, visit this:

View the apartments!

Posted on May 5

dear diary:
happy birthday to the i love you virus! that's all

april showers bring may.. showers
Posted on May 2

dear diary:
(bryan, if you've read this entry, i hope you're okay.)

anyways, happy May. i have just been super depressed lately! i don't know why. i want to stop therapy because i don't really like talking to my therapist and it hasn't helped me at all - i don't see how it COULD, we only meet once every two weeks.

also, i feel proud of my blog, recently. it's grown to the point (and i mean in post amount) that it's, uh.. really big. like a LOT of text. i don't plan to archive any posts, i'm just gonna have the site load slower and slower as the post count grows more and more. (also, there are AROUND 39 posts so far. doesn't seem like that many when i make it a number.)

Look at my stuff

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